28 JULY 2011
Tonight, 28 July 2011. I remember about one year ago I ever gave a note to someone special, but it was. I remember that note was write about my wish to be together with him, have children with him, he teach our son playing football, and how happy to be his partner. Tonight, I remember that everyday he told that he love me, and know I realize that it was true. There were so many beautiful memories that we created. We have known from 8th grade on junior high school. We in love twice, we broke up twice, but I couldn’t and maybe never forget him. It not because I love him until now, but I think he is unforgettable for everything he done. He ever did many things, he ever loved me so much and I ever loved him much too. But the big question is, why I look like dump if I met him? Could I smile for him? Not means I want to back with him, but just to be friend. I ever did many times to try to be friends like usual. But I lose my mind. It doesn’t mean I regret if I am not could be his friends, but why? That’s the question I made but that’s the question I never know the answer. Logically I could be usual, but… maybe I didn’t want to try, or I couldn’t? Why I couldn’t be his friend but I could be his girlfriend for twice? Maybe I… ok I give up. I don’t know the answer. But I know one thing, I write this not because I love him it cause I loved him, and I couldn’t forget our memories. You know what? Sometimes I like to check your timeline, check you Facebook’s profile and got hurts if you like someone else. But I do not love you. I loved you. And that’s all I know.
